For Chris Levoir

The Mark Inside at the Gladstone Hotel Ballroom | NXNE 2012

I had put you away in a box, though I was sure I’d see you again.

I’ve only known you for a little over a year but the moments we shared meant more to me than I ever cared to let you, or anyone else1 know. I liked that you called me, ‘lady’2. It was so rock and roll. You were so rock and roll, but so down to earth at the same time. You were the perfect balance of both. I would have loved you forever if you had asked me to. There’s a part of my heart that always will. Especially now that I never got to tell you just how wonderful you are. And how wonderful you made me feel the few moments we got to share (on or offline).

I remember going to your gig at El Mocambo after watching another band’s cd release party. I got there just after the last band’s set had finished, you told me when I came to say hello to you. You bought me a drink, or a shot; or both, I can’t remember now. Conversation was easy between us. Soon though, you had to get on stage. I stood near the front, stage left. I watched you do what you did best, rock out. We talked about getting drinks together some time, as I was saying my goodbyes. One day we got our chance…

It was a great first date and you were the gentlest man to have ever rocked my world at the time. I remember thinking that you had the softest skin. That your lips were softer than I had imagined them to be. That your touch was electric. You spoke to me in the deepest bass voice I’ve ever heard; it was a delight to listen in the state of mind I was in when I was with you. You had the most innocent, caring face. You smiled with your eyes, though your smile3 alone would have melted anyone’s heart.

I didn’t know you that well; I loved you all the same. I’m sad I’ll never get to see you again. I was hoping that at the very least we’d stay friends for a very long time, and I’d get to meet your beautiful children; that I’d get to watch you grow old and exceed all our expectations of you. You were great because you just loved. You loved the things that mattered to you, and they loved you right back.

——-

The Mark Inside, at Sofar Sounds on August 16, 2011.

This week at the Great Hall just isn’t going to be the same without him there. I miss him. I know I’m not the only one who does, but I needed to say it out loud here. Judging from outpouring of love all over various media, I know I am not alone in that need either. We’re all in agreement:

He was kind of a big deal4.

Footnotes:
  1. including myself[]
  2. I’m sure I wasn’t the only one[]
  3. more of a smirk, really[]
  4. I would say, he still is[]

It’s all Happening, Part 2: NXNE 2013

[update: This will be the hardest year but it could also be the most glorious. More on that soon.]

I remember when I applied to be a volunteer for North By North East in 2011. I wasn’t sure I was going to be accepted. I had successfully managed the stage at two Canadian Music Festival venues in a row at that point and I was feeling pretty confident but I somehow had the impression that it would be harder to get in. It wasn’t.

NXNE2013

My first year, I was assigned to manage the stage at what is now known as The Sister1. It went pretty smoothly. I was still living in the Humewood/Cedarvale area and cycling everywhere. I was in heaven. Last year, I got to manage the Ballroom stage at the Gladstone Hotel. There was something special about the experience that I’m not sure will ever be duplicated.

There was something about the programming, the people I got to work with, the people who came to visit me, the people I didn’t get to see because they fell ill and missed the entire festival… it all worked together somehow. I’m so very excited for this summer as I’m sure it’s going to be just as magical. The Great Hall is one of my favourite venues, and I have no doubt that I’m going to feel right at home.

My memories of NXNE started long before I became a Stage Manager for the festival. I went to my first ever show at the Horseshoe Tavern to meet the quirky and talented Steve Poltz. I went to see him in 1998, then I went back a year later to ask him to sign the photo of us from the previous year. We also hung out and had some laughs in the green room. He’s a doll and we still hang out from time to time when he’s in town. Anywho. I’ll just leave this here so you can see the line-up at The Great Hall this year.

What will you be seeing at NXNE this year?

NXNE 2013 lineup

All photos used in the above collage belong to the bands and their management. Collage credit belongs to me and my photoshop skillz. Sources:

bengunning.com
- delbelmusic.com
- sloanmusic.com
- brazosbrazos.com
- coeurdepirate.com
- inflightsafety.com
- olenkalovers.com
- ourfounders.com
- armyoftoys.com
- mikeoneillmusic.com
- superfriendz.bandcamp.com
- wearevillagers.com

Footnotes:
  1. I guess they lost Mitzi[]

Playing catch-up

I haven’t been too busy to write. I definitely have had plenty on my mind that I could have written about. I’ve just been distracted1. I’d tell you about it but you probably wouldn’t be interested anyway2.

I’m finally coming up for air though and I really wanted to take stock of all the fun things I’ve done since Canadian Music Week. Being a hair model at the ABA hair show again this year was a slightly different experience than previous years. First of all, I missed Jason dearly but I made new sexy friends so I wasn’t that sad. I was at the hair show for two days. My hair got coloured, wet, cut, blow-dried, curled, pulled at, straightened and all sorts of other glorious things. It was a lot of fun, as always, and I really hope I get to do it all over again next year.

Just call me Cruella. Ella Ella Ella New Hair!

Next on the agenda was a delightful surprise. I was invited by my good friend, Andrew, to attend the Feminist Porn Awards. It was every bit as sexy and as open3 as I had hoped. There was sex, sexy and then some. I recall being very turned on all night long, and yet I felt quite satisfied going home to sleep in my own bed that night4. My favourite part of the night was when Mahogany Storm & someone whose name escapes me right now took to a single pole on stage. Oh. My. Gah. It was hot.

Pole Dancing at the Feminist Porn Awards

What else, my brother got a puppy. Who he named Drogo. It hasn’t quite affected my life as much since I’m never home but it’s still pretty nice being able to play with a puppy whenever I feel like5. Isn’t he cute?

Drogo!

Naturally, I was also able to see some live music since Canadian Music Week. Like The Elwins’ 7″ release at the Horseshoe Tavern. There were a lot of people there to support the adorable boys; it was hot and sweaty, and deliciously fun. I didn’t dance that night but only because I was pretty tired, and I wasn’t in the mood to bump elbows with a tall person in tow6.

Songwriter-In-The-Round Graydon James & The Young Novelists

I also managed to get back from Hamilton7 just in time for Graydon James’ book launch for The Mall of Small Frustrations. I gotta tell ya, it was the perfect end to a very long 10-day contract. I arrived just before the show started and was able to grab a seat at a table near the back for the songwriter-in-the-round with Ron Hawkings, Stephen Stanley and Andrea Ramolo who performed so beautifully8. Graydon read a passage from his novel; his performance made me wish I could buy an audio copy of him reading the entire book because I will be hearing his voice read it to me from now on anyway.

And then the band, Graydon James & The Young Novelists, took the stage and I found myself grinning from ear to ear for the remainder of the night. I drove home and crashed9 only to find myself with the same grin plastered on my face the next morning. It was my first time at Hugh’s Room and I’m so glad I got to spend it supporting people like the Young Novelists10 because I don’t know that it would have been as memorable if it were anyone else.

There’s a lot more I’m sure I could write about but let’s save that for next time, yeah?

What have you been up to?

Footnotes:
  1. happily distracted, mind you[]
  2. Ha. Maybe they were right, maybe I am a tease[]
  3. minded[]
  4. not that my dear friend was not a sexy mo-fo but we are just friends[]
  5. which is like once in a blue moon[]
  6. I would have wanted to be right in front of the stage[]
  7. oh right, that happened too but we are not going to talk about that[]
  8. I felt so freaking honoured to be in that room with such talent[]
  9. in bed[]
  10. and Graydon, duh[]

KAFA: Words Hurt

What a great campaign. I’m in the middle of Canadian Music Week madness and I just had to share this here because it ties in nicely with what I talked about for International Women’s Day. I found this on my current obsession: Imgur.

Words Hurt: Bitch

Words Hurt: Slut

Words Hurt: Whore

These were curated by Lebanese organization KAFA, turning the idea of verbal abuse into physical to raise awareness.

Photographer: James Day

Have you used any of these words lately? Do you think about how your words can affect someone?

Here we go again, Hard as I try I know I can’t quit

[Lyrics borrowed from Demi Lovato for the blog post title]

CMW logo

My life is about to explode with some awesome Indie Rock music((most of the bands . It’s going to open it’s sweaty freakin’ arms and envelope me with its foot tapping, head bopping, awkward-shoulder shaking goodness for the next four days. Every year when I get my list of bands, I make it a point to sit down and visit every band page and listen to whatever it is I can listen to online.

I guess you could say I take my role as a Stage Manager pretty seriously; and I think that knowing who you’re working with is an extremely important part of it. It’s easier to work with someone when you understand something about them, even if you don’t necessarily understand them completely. What better way to understand someone than by finding some sort of common ground through music that they’ve put a lot of hard work into? I think so too ;)

I don’t quite know what today actually has in store for me1 but I’m sure I’ll be able to steal away some moments to tweet a few things that may or may not be telling.

What does Canadian Music Week have in store for you?

Footnotes:
  1. because can never quite predict exactly what is going to happen in this world[]
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